And I find that my heart is my home


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ian somerhalder
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I realized today that I always seem to get myself into just plain awkward situations. How do I do it? No clue, if I did I would surely stop. But in the midst of my self created madness the simplest thing can change my mood in an instant. For example, watching the latest Friday Night Lights episode or listening to a song I love just snaps me right out of my funk.

Thank God for music and good television!

Supernatural Episode Thoughts
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ian somerhalder
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Hey Everyone! Let me apologize in advance for the rant that is due to follow.

So I am reading, on one of the private practice forums, people's reactions to Violet and how she is dealing with the baby and her ordeal. First and foremost let me just say the fact that she is not in some comatose like state is amazing to me. If I had a baby that was ripped from my womb while I watched and was defenseless to stop it, I would just crawl in a corner and never leave. People on the forum repeatedly kept saying that she should just pick herself up and get some help. That she is a psychologist and should know that she needs help. A) professional or not there really is no training or class on how to deal with a crazy person stealing your baby from inside your body. Which one of us can say truthfully we could simply put that out of our minds. She can still see the bloodstain in her living room where it all happened. B) there is a difference between abandoning your child and realizing that you are in no shape to properly care for him and leaving him with his father. I mean she knows that a child needs love and comfort which are things she cannot give him so she made sure that Lucas would get that from someone else.

This brings me to Pete who is being a right ass about all this by repeatedly forcing the child in her face and making her out to be this terrible mother. And while yes she won't be winning any awards she helped the crazy woman deliver her baby because she wanted him to be okay and then the first thing she wanted to know when she got to the hospital was if he was okay. Right now she needs to deal with the actual ramifications of the event and Pete just wants them to be one big happy family. He needs to realize that the trauma she suffered no one just moves on from. He cannot force her to connect with her son, it needs to happen naturally.

End of rant



Dollhouse
ian somerhalder
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I have of late really gotten into this show. To anyone who does not watch it, please start it is a great show and they have found some truly talented actors. Which brings me to this point: VIctor has so become my favorite doll. Enver plays him to perfection. He is the sweetest doll and his childlike behavior just makes me want to give him a hug. When he was Roger, it was different from the NSA agent, the horse buyer, and Lubov. Each different imprint is truly a different person. I know that it is supposed to be but sometimes I feel that Echo is just Echo pretending to be someone else.

Though I must say Sierra and November are great dolls as well. Sierra is such a tragic doll from how she was put in there to
what has happened to her when she arrived. November is just makes my heart hurt, she came to the Dollhouse because her daughter died and then as Mellie she gets her heart broken. The poor girl just cannot catch a break.

Dr. Saunders/Whiskey is becoming just a totally fascinating character. At times I don't know how to feel about her and the best part is I don't think she does either. It must be a completely surreal experience to feel like you are separate and from these dolls and come to the startling fact that you are one. That your body is not really your body and you are not really you. And then when she told Topher she did want to die and I realized that when they wipe the imprints in a way they are "killing" that person. Her need to escape the place that has recently become her prison is very understandable and if I was her I would have left too.

Which brings me to the Dollhouse staff. Boyd and Adelle are undoubtedly awesome. Boyd is loyal and protective of Echo and has a good head on his shoulders. Adelle is the HBIC but her heart is in the right place. She also has a soft spot for Victor and Topher, in completely different ways but I love her for her need to mother Topher. Because seriously does need someone to watch out for him.

Topher gets so caught up in the science that sometimes he forgets the fact that these are people. His genius makes it hard for him to connect to people. But as of late it is hard for anyone to claim that he does not care. I adore his little witty moments and he keeps the air of the Dollhouse light.

Dominic may not be everyone's cup of tea but I love him lots. He is hardcore and badass, he looked out for the Dollhouse mostly even if his methods are less than ethical. People need someone who will stand up get things taken care of. I really felt bad for him being sent into the attic I mean that is beyond cruel and unusual punishment.

Paul is someone I have conflicting feelings about him. Love the actor but the character wants to be the hero but sometimes falls tragically short. Nonetheless he is interesting.

All these different characters make the Dollhouse for me one hell of a show. And yes I know I barely talked about Echo but she is so central to the show you don't need me to say much and she is not my draw to the show.






Do You Believe in Magic?
ian somerhalder
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I have recently gotten this song stuck in my head and I wanted to have a small rant about those songs you get stuck in your head. This year it seems I am particularly susceptable to hearing even a part of a song and not being able to let it go. I have tried just listening to the song but it only makes itself more firmly buried in my mind. Two of the most frequent songs have been Santogold's Shove it and LInkin Park's A Place for My Head. I like both songs and the problem is that their intros are really fun and cool. I am a sucker for a good intro and a sweet bass line.
And now to get completely sidetracked. I have come back home and am catching up on shows that I missed while I was away. BTW the Mentalist is a great show that everyone should watch. The characters are fun and interesting and the writing is smart and witty. I also caught up on my daytime soaps and let me just say that OLTL is quite incapable of knowing when a s/l needs to be tied up. They have a great issue with tying up loose ends. Hello writers there is totally a difference between suspense and dragging something out to the point of boredom. That being said, tell Starr and Cole that Chloe is Hope and have Jessica return her to her parents. Also for Y&R writers please capitalize on the great chemistry between Kevin and Mac and let them have scenes together as friends. To the writers of ATWT please let Parker realize that he is out of line and snap him out of this whiny phase also stop making Meg sympathetic to everyone but the audience b/c if you want me to side with her she needs to stop being so wishy washy and all around boring. Also thumbs up to Shonda Rhymes for the finales of Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice. 

Looking at this post I have realized that I watch way to many shows and I am going to stop writing now and contemplate getting a life. TTFN 

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ian somerhalder
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I am totally bored right now and finals have got me in a sort of rut. I abhor studying and all forms of schoolwork. My mind wants to be challenged not exhausted. But here I am on LJ instead of studying like I should be. In a moment I will probably start watching another episode of Criminal Minds which has re-sparked my interest in going back and looking at how far these characters have really come. I mean the first time we see Hotch he is actually smiling. Not to say that I do not love my stoic and dry G-man but it was nice to see him smile. It was good to see the much missed Elle and Gideon. Morgan has kinda of relaxed more into his role and matured. Reid has become stronger and more scarred. JJ is a mother and let me say that in its self is a big change. Not she was not the maternal type but it helps reaffirm that these characters are more than just their job. I love them all and it is fun to be reintroduced to Rossi and Prentiss. Garcia of course has been there from the start and I feel that while she has also grown her essence has remained the most similar throughout the entire series. The Tech Kitten will forever be a favorite because she is a sweet, smart, and sassy woman that you cannot help but love. Really excited for this wednesday's upcoming episode and all that it will bring. Hopefully I will actually study before my stat final. Wish me luck!

Supernatural (warning spoilers for When the Levee Breaks)
ian somerhalder
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So I have just watched the latest epi of supernatural and...wow. Sam detoxing was soo intense and the people he saw. Let me just say that the actor who plays young Sam (his name alludes me at this moment) is really good. My heart hurt seeing these people play out what he felt but was too afraid to say himself. Like his teenage self telling him that he should have tried harder to be normal. I mean I know Jessica died but the kid was right that is the every excuse why he couldn't go back. And his mother voicing his feelings that Dean is weaker than him and that he is the stronger brother. But when he saw Dean down there I almost wanted to cry it was heartbreaking that he felt like he was a monster. Looking back to season 1 and our fresh faced college Sam it is amazing how he has transformed into this. Oh, where is my sweet Sammy? When Dean actually said the word monster out loud I knew that there was no way I was getting my boys together at the end. Sam has just gone off the deep and I don't know if we will be getting him back. Bobby, whom I absolutely love to pieces, couldn't shoot him and I love him for that. Sam knocking him out however, I have no love for that bit.

Writers you are driving me up a wall with anxiousness. This season finale will be epic no doubt and I for one will be glued to the tv for it all. I have enjoyed this season immensely and don't know what I will do till next season. Most likely rewatch the entire season and keep and a on the theory boards.

Firefly
ian somerhalder
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I just recently I started watching the show Firefly. I have come to the conclusion that this show was the best show that I never heard about and I love it to pieces. The characters were fun and interesting with backstories and quirks that made them fun and interesting to watch. I must say that my favorite character was Jayne Cobb aka the Man they call Jayne. Adam Baldwin played him to perfection. He just made me laugh and smile at his unique way of looking at the world. I loved the dynamic between Simon and River, I am a complete sucker for family loyalty and love affairs. I have decided that I want a brother just like him. It would also be really cool to be able to kick ass like River. Then of course I have love for Zoe/Wash. At first I didn't get the relationship but watching them...they just clicked. Love romances like that where the connection is unexpected but it just works. Kaylee and Book were cool as well and I don't want anyone thinking they were under appreciated by me. Inara was a wicked character and I love the whole companion angle to her life. Last but certainly not least Mal...I love my captain. I have liked Nathan Fillion in other roles but this has to be my favorite role for him. It was complex, endearing, and full of fun wit. The coming together of the characters with the genius of Joss, I was like in heaven. When I reached the episode 14, I think I went straight out to rent serenity and now I want more so I am trying to find as much fic as I can because I feel empty knowing the show is over and I have nothing new to feed my new obsession with all that is Firefly.

*sigh* Until I need to rant about my next obsession...Ciao

Merlin and Procrastination
ian somerhalder
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So, yesterday I spent the day watching the entire first season of Merlin. Loved it by the way! But  that is not the point I had much more pressing things to do. Such as the 4 pages of a rough draft for a term paper due on tuesday which I have done absolutely nothing for. I don't know what it is with me and these shows. I had work to do in January so I watched all 5 seasons of QAF in a single week. Yeah I need help so if anyone out there knows of any shows that I can try out for the next time I am putting off important assignments that might assist me in graduating from college, let me know. I doubt that I will all of a sudden become studious so no worries. Until next time, Ciao!
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Me and PhotoScape
ian somerhalder
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So, I have this wonderful editing software called PhotoScape. I must say I am a little in love with it. So I am no creative genius but I have made a few cute little things. So we will see how they do.




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